What I've read from the Bible today

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Some people give much but get back even more. Others don't give what they should and end up poor. Whoever gives to others will get richer; those who help others will themselves be helped.

from Proverbs 11: 24-25.

I opened the Bible a second time for this Christmas vacation. I have a plan kasi to be a be a better person by waking up early and reading the Bible everyday. Do you think i'm getting better? :D

Anyway, I believe, this is true and really is helpful. I was to blog about being/wanting to be a loner before, but I think now is the appropriate time to mention it.

I am a loner, or probably can be alone most of the times. There are people who want to be with friends or people at all times, I on the other hand can survive or can handle being alone. But of course I love being with friends and family too of course! I make friends with the people I'm with everyday (like classmates, university technicians, janitors, security guards). Oh my goodness, that actually tells me that I am friendly! Anyway, the thing is for other people of my batch, I have this attitude that they should come to me first before I trust or consider them as a friend. I guess, this certain attitude came from a broken heart during first year high school. At high school, I was too friendly, like I thought everyone was my friend already. But unfortunately, I learned it the hard way. Some people will not consider you as a friend immediately even if you tell them your problems or stories. (Grrrr...) So there, I have learned to doubt and caution. So probably that is a justification of my attitude of "you first". But that goes for most of my unknown batchmates anyway. But I am friendly, that's what I have realized by writing this entry. Even though I want to believe that I'm alone, I have realized that I do have friends, and I reach out to people more often.

So in life, no matter how much shit people throw at you, well they are shit but are still people. And you can always, at times, receive their shit and love them still. <3

Homeworks

Just for fun =P

RUS- as usual, News to read
        - Paper on Deviance
PHYSIOLEC- exam on Chap 2.
                      - discussion on chap 3
PHYSIOLAB- due formal report on Compound Action Potential
                       - presentation about it
ECOLEC- most likely, a quiz on chap 3
                - reread chaps 1 and 2
                - discussion on chap 4
ETAR- exam on chaps 5,6, 7, 8
PGC- exam on Articles 1,2, 3
        - report on Article 7 Sections 13-18
        - due term paper
ECOLAB- due written report on field work: Sandy Intertidal
                - submission of written report on Data Management Exercises
                - reporting on Data Management: CORRELATION

Christmas Gift for Myself [Part 2]

I browsed through each page and found no defect! Yay! I am so happy. So ecstatic! <3

And I love smelling the pages too! Hmmm..... <3

The Last Airbender

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This is in line with my previous entry (not recent however) about wanting to share some thoughts about this particular movie. Well, I love incorporating the lessons Aang learned in my own life too. Like some thing about Water: Learn acceptance; Learn to let go. Yeah, I think it was something like that. Anyway, I do feel sorry for Prince Zuko, but I believe, in the end he would make a compassionate King of the Fire Nation. (Sorry, making my own story here.) Also, I loved how the family served an important role in the movie.

<3 Even though fans of the Avatar (comics/TV series) really hate the movie, I kinda love it. hehe <3

Christmas Gift for Myself

Hello! I've been itching to buy myself the new Belle de Jour Power planner, and I did just yesterday! I was so happy and proud and fulfilled! hahahaha But just this morning, I noticed defects on 6 pages! How sad. I was planning on not reporting about it anymore because I waited for it for far too long (haha exaggerated, not true). Anyway, i did report it, my brother told me so because I wouldn't be able to write on it because of the defects, how unfortunate........... Really pulling on a long face now. But I still love my planner! hahahaha

Christmas Gift

I just bought my classmate her wish for this year's Christmas Party! It's a Belle de Jour Power Planner. I first discovered this during fourth year high school when my kikay classmate had one. I browsed through the pages and enjoyed it however I decided I might not get anything done at all with this kind of planner because I'll be busy reading its articles and looking at it all the time because it was so beautiful! So anyway, I decided not to buy the planner.

But, browsing through my gift for my friend, I realized, this is what I need after all I want to feel like a "girl/lady". That I think it's time to be a lady now. I shall buy myself the 2011 Belle de Jour Powerplanner! I think it will really help me, now that i'm graduating! <3 Much much love.

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missed

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I just remembered right now that I used to read books after class at our school library when I was in grade school. I was fascinated with Space at the time, that I loved this really cool encyclopedia about it (for kids). And then I remembered always browsing through my family's encyclopedia about The Universe. I really loved that book! Anyway, I guess, I'm not managing my time well. I'm too busy doing one particular, senseless thing. Anyway, I think now's the time to focus once again. And I actually feel good now that I've mentioned it. 

I'm sick now, sadly. I'm supposed to be attending Christmas events this week but unfortunately, am too tired and mom will kill me! Tonight is the pageant of a friend. I'm supposed to be supporting but :(. And then, Thursday evening is our block Christmas party. I don't know if mom's going to let me. And then, Friday night is my university's annual PASKUHAN, an event many students are looking forward to. =) Superb fireworks!

If ever I do get to attend Paskuhan, then I would surely be taking lots of pictures. <3

bone tired, will sleep early!

I wasn't able to finish watching this yesterday. Also, I've watched Requiem for a Dream prior to watching this. Got depressed by the movie! I cried! sheesh, what a creepy, brilliant movie. But not really wonderful. I like how the movie [Requiem for a Dream] was made though!

Sadly, I haven't watched Harry Potter 7 yet, nor the new Narnia movie! Been busy! Grrrr... 

Hello!

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I just watched this after arriving from our field work in Ecology Lab! (Originally written December 1, 2010)

Will write soon! My blog has a new look! Anyway, I'm tired! Next time I promise!

So easy

It was so easy and fun to study when we don't have any assignments to research for for our minor subjects! I was able to read the whole chapter for my Physiology class, do summary note takings for my first hw in Current Issues class! Next would be Ecology... I think my minor subjects take up most of my time when they give out HWs. Thank God there are none!

I wouldn't be home for the weekend because my batch would be having a field work for our Ecology Laboratory course at Bolinao, Pangasinan. We're assigned in Sandy Intertidal. So i wouldn't be able to blog then...

Since I was able to read the whole chapter one of my Physiology lecture class, I didn't take down notes anymore, so there was a part of me wanting to wander the dream world again. And so I did with caution. All I ever dreamed about was the dream house, and how I think I would meet the One. And somehow, I don't know I'd surrender or have my reservations. But anyway I told him, whoever he was that I was waiting for him long enough. :D I was careful not to mess up with what I have now. I think I enjoyed being part of another world. But I didn't immerse myself into it unlike before. I liked that!

Homeworks

Assignments, just for fun.

Monday
PGC- due at 8AM: term paper (book) on _______???
Current Issues with RUS- continuation of HW + recitation, current issues + recitation (this class should be called, Sociology with Recitation course)
Physiology Lecture- read chapter 1
Physiology Lab- bring potato tubers, cheesecloth, labgown, study experiment 1 + short quiz

Wednesday
Ecology Lecture: chapter 1 & 2 long exam
ETAR: read chapter 1&2
PGC: long exam on _______??

Toasted

This entry is related to the previous post.

I wasn't able to attend my classes today. How sad... Now that I've wanted to change my study habits and all. But the thing I cannot change in my life is the love for sleep. Anyway, stayed up very early in the morning, a little past 12 midnight, just so that I can have something to talk about during graded recitation (researched for it). The thing is, I woke up at 4:15, and i just can't do it. So I missed the my 3 classes. How sad, really.
I did go to school for my research thesis. Finally, we made yet another step today! And the next would be on Tuesday for the Scanning Electron Microscope at the Research Institute for Tropical Medicine at the Department of Health, Alabang Muntinlupa City. *sigh* I'm really tired today. And also yesterday because my groupmates and I went to Caloocan, and searched for a specific motor oil. We scoured the many stores that lined 10th Avenue. Glad it was done.

While going to school, and probably leaving school, my mind was all blank with anger/frustration/irritation. Good thing I chanced upon a good friend at the library and we talked about it. I don't have thoughts in my head. I just have the angry emotion in it. I try to stop it sometimes, or, when God is blessing me with people/strangers I have to be kind and polite with. That made me smile today. God is really great. He surprises us all the time, I'm smiling right now.


I want to rest/sleep before doing school work again. No day to rest at all. My free days: Sunday, Tuesday and Friday are spent on doing homeworks and studying. :) Goodluck!

Toast

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I haven't been focusing on my mantra that much for this week. Instead of outside the tornado of life, observing, I am in it with other people, pulling, panting and confused. From time to time during mornings, walking at a garden in front of my building I am reminded that the world/life is beautiful. And the way I say it to myself is like I'm convincing myself, so I laugh which is totally funny (well, for me). So anyway, I am panicky, hot-headed, super sensitive. I am paranoid, I doubt other people. While ranting to a friend, I realized that I easily get too frustrated with people. Strangers who sit next to me during commute, long-time friends who say some things that for them (and probably for other people) is normal but for me, is quite negative (it's probably the reaction on their faces which annoys me). But there is actually nothing to be irritated about at all.

I am distracted by what's happening in front of me, and to others. I should practice being on my own bubble. I think that's what I wanted on my first day of school as a university student, 4 years ago. I wanted to be mature about everything. Like what I've been learning from Meditation at Ananda Marga Yoga. But then after a few days, I said to myself, why change if this is really who I am? <--- that was 4 years ago. Now, to have a simpler life, free of thoughts, and only full of love, I have to read the newsletters again.

There is progress actually. Everytime there is a lecture, I focus now on it. I think of the present, what's right in front of me. Now, the next step would probably be, to do something productive when there is no lecture, something to keep the mind from thinking unwanted thoughts. Or to focus, or simply, to meditate. Will try that tomorrow.

School work is piling up. Thanks to professors who give students lots of homework so that they wouldn't teach anymore! <----- Okay, that was a wrong call. I should be full of love and happiness right now. It's wrong. Should always be positive! YES YES YES!

Hi! I know I haven't been writing for a while...

because i think I have really nothing to write about now school's started again. I'm still not yet doing my sociology homework or even my Philippine Government Constitution homework. Anyway, I hate that my class doesn't have our books yet because I'm dying to read the first chapters already! Or the smell of newly opened books!

My friend and I watched Easy A yesterday when classes were suspended because of a strike. The movie was nice. Totally forgettable, but nice and wonderful! haha :)

We were at Fully Booked before watching so I scouted for books people might want to give me as Christmas gifts.

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The Elegant Universe by Brian Greene looks cool but I tried to read the first chapter through NY Times, and I can't understand it! I think it's because I'm not a physicist. :(

Anyway, I have been watching educational, scientific videos online. One, was about Animators of Life (also through the NY Times website). It's about Cell Biology and how scientists/animators bring the mechanisms to life by cinematic processes. The other one I watched in youtube, it was about the Natural Killer Cell. Anyway, I also read something about Gliese____. Gliese, I think, was the name of the star, and Gliese____ was the name of one of the planets orbiting it which can actually support water. It's actually a great scientific discovery. I've read also that scientists over and over find these 'habitable' planets, only to disregard and trash it altogether after probably some additional findings. I kind of got saddened that the article I was reading ended by a scientist who's kind of negative about the finding. Anyway anyway...

Here's a link to the article about the Animators of Life. The video can also be found there.

Here's a link to the article about the new habitable planet found.

I am currently trying to load a trailer of an upcoming movie starring Natalie Portman, the Black Swan. It was the first time I ever heard of it. Thanks to the NY Times website!

A Day or Two

I'm excited for our research! It's because we finally know where and when to have our nanoparticles viewed in a Transmission Electron Microscope. Yahoo! Thank you thank you thank you!

Plans today
I'm supposed to be researching for my Current Issues course. And I would love to have started reading for our Ecology course but too bad, my class doesn't have the books yet. I was planning on painting my newly painted cabinets today with watercolor. My mom doesn't like the idea, she said if it doesn't turn out to be okay, she'll kill me. haha! Good thing I texted my friend/artist Bianca first about it, and she told me to use acrylic paint! Thank God thank God! :)

Later, we'll be dining out because it's my cousin's birthday! Yay! I have classes tomorrow though. Just an update!

My Last Semester of College Started Today!

And I was happy because I got to share my new found solution to a friend who needs it too. But anyway, whatever works for her! I hope she can benefit from what I've learned.

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I was talking to a friend about how happy and contented I am now. I am. Just a few minutes ago, I've watched Time Traveler's Wife again. The second time I've watched it, (first time at the cinema). It was beautiful. Okay, so I was saying a while ago, that I'm good now that I'm single/alone or maybe, I've accepted the fact that I am single and alone now, I'm contented. So anyway, before Time Traveler's Wife, I took a sneak peek again at Vanilla Sky, trying to see what I would feel about living in dreams when I've already changed. But I would soon finish the movie again and write a post about it. Today I shall write about the Time Traveler's Wife.

Well, I admittedly, wanted someone before (I'm saying, I still want him still, but wouldn't think about it 24/7). So, the movie, showed me how I also wanted someone, and that I was waiting. What I realized just now is this: I still want him, and am hoping for the best. That he will come, surely. And I would love him, totally.

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That's the conclusion. I'm not giving up.

What do I think about now? Well, I prefer to think of what's right in front of me. When stressful thoughts creep in, I immediately say my mantra. For what seems like forever before I've changed, I consider having no one a problem. A huge problem, that has to be solved by that other one. For the past few days, I have not thought about it, and I'm glad. Maybe I stopped thinking about it since I considered it a problem. But now, just today, I learned to think about The One, happily (that's where hoping for the best comes). I do not long for him that much. I just think of him and what we would do when we're finally together. hihihihi :)

That's the important Thought of the Day.

Simply, Loving.

“I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear.”

Martin Luther King, Jr.

As I have realized one night, the simplest and easiest thing we could do with life is to love. Being angry, hateful, these kinds of emotions stress us. If we continue to think about the people that hurt us, the events we were ashamed of then we wouldn't really feel free. The simplest way to get a ticket to freedom is to look at everything with loving eyes. You don't have to understand. Just feel the love. Look at the walls with love, look at it with loving, smiling eyes. The way we look at our world matters. What they say is true after all. Sometimes we have to learn and realize these things ourselves in order to accept them, incorporate them in our lives fully. My friends kept telling me this, but I was stubborn back then. So now, I am writing to you, it works after all.

May we never forget this truth.

Beautiful, beautiful. Only beautiful.

I'm on 108, I flipped the pages after and I realized, I'm on the last story and my own journey is ending. All I kept saying to myself was, "Beautiful, beautiful. Only beautiful."

What a lovely story and what a great story-teller, Elizabeth Gilbert is. I enjoyed how she wrote her book. The book if full of honesty. That's what I liked about it. 

What I learned, simply in:

Italy- take pleasure always. Reward yourself always.

India- I have my own mantra now, "Quiet the mind." I always say this to myself now, although the power of it might be lacking on something more positive. But I'm learning, learning and also after my mind achieves the quietness I'm relaxed, calm and now positive thoughts could enter. <3

Indonesia- I still don't know what I've learned from this trip. But I have in mind some things I would like to remember. In the end, Gilbert mentioned that it seems like a fairytale ending because she even had Felipe with her. However, she realized that she wasn't rescued by her prince, but was the "administrator of her own rescue". I liked that idea. I used to think and believe that my life would fall into place when I meet The One. Truly, I ask God for that person. I remember my friend James telling me during our retreat that God doesn't give us everything right away. And I told him, but i'm actually asking only for one thing, not everything! And then, with much more thinking during the retreat I realized I've been only asking God for that one person. But it seems that when He gives me that person, God would eventually be giving me everything else too. So moving on, I like that self-realization of Elizabeth Gilbert. I thought of that too before but was too depressed anyway to incorporate it in my life. But now that I have my mantra now, I don't think of that certain person anymore and the life that we would be having. I used to think of that 24/7 but now I don't and I'm very grateful. I'm now focused on myself and what I can do. This might not sound okay for some but I think of myself now, with more focus. I also used to think of other people too much. I don't really give time for myself. But now I do. <3 What I also like about Bali, was her honesty. I think before I re-think and playback all the hurtful thoughts in mind, playing them over and over but not for forgiveness like what Gilbert did, but for self-pity. hehe, I don't know if I can actually do that now because I'm quite relaxed now. But maybe one by one when these thoughts creep on me again, I'd forgive them and send them to my heart too. That's why on a previous entry, I've doubted myself if I'm just suppressing the feelings and thoughts and not addressing them or I'm not yet completely healed but on my way. Maybe this is a vacation. I'm quite relaxed and loving now. I try to love and be non-judgmental. I try now...

So all in all, all I can say is, I love her writing, her memoir, her changed life. She, and I know a lot of people out there, serve as an inspiration for those wanting to change their toxic lives too. I know the feeling, and I'm trying it out even though I can't fly to my three places too. But I'm following her footsteps when it comes to taking pleasure, praying and balancing. Although honestly, it's not a religious following, but I am trying. 

And now let's pray..

Dearest God, I thank you for the people in the world who serve as inspirations for the troubled ones. They themselves were troubled and now they are healed. May we always remember that problems are temporary and our lives could change for the better. And always there are people willing to help. Thank you Lord. Amen.

Food Gifts, (please?)

As always I like receiving gifts from people, especially when they're food. Although I can't remember any incident of people giving me the kind of food gifts I want, that's probably because I don't have any suitors. So anyway, moving on... I chanced upon Dessert Comes First because I'm subscribed to Patti's Palette and she posted an entry saying she was featured in a dessert blog. So truly enchanting, the dessert blog is Manila based. So I remember now how I truly, really, honestly want someone (guys) who would surprise me with the food I want. My dream guy would treat me to fancy restaurants, out-of-town restaurants, treat me to bakeshops I've never been to before. That saying, the dream guy has to have work so it actually means he's older than me. I'm actually mentioning Troy here again. But whatever, the dream guy of course is imaginary and I don't have time for imaginations right now. <3

I would like to receive a dozen cupcakes from Sweet Patti Cakes. All of their flavors please because it sounds and looks really delectable from the pictures and from the reviews and as Patti blogs herself. It's kind of pricey though, 900 pesos a dozen. I actually dropped the whole thing at first when I learned it that it was so costly for a dozen cupcake. That's why I wished for others, instead to give me a box. But reading the review done by Dessert Comes First, I really want it so badly now that my first/second savings when the semester comes would be reserved for this beautiful treat.

A poor screenshot of the website's menu section.

You can read the review and more pictures here.

Another cupcake I would like to try is from Sonja's Cupcakes. I don't know if they have a website though but the review is right here. I entered their little store once years ago, and I actually thought their cupcakes were pricey too. That's why I made the mistake of leaving the store with a cupcake-free stomach. But reading the review, I think I over-judged (if there is such a word) their cupcakes by price and looks. Sure, their cupcakes look sweet, cool, really sweet-looking but I though then that I wouldn't spend that much for just a cupcake. As I learned from the review, the cupcake is only 55 pesos. I think I didn't have money back then or just didn't want my sister to spend on such a cupcake but I would now that I'm older and wiser. :D Anyway, I would really make sure to taste their cupcakes! I would reserve money for Sonja's Cupcakes!

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So anyway, I'm still sad because no one would like to give me free treats and I can't even ask my mom to buy me these because I (and mommy) consider it as a luxury. So I realized that to attain happiness: don't wait for others to give you gifts; give yourself a gift right now!  So I actually did that last Wednesday after my research group met. I ate lunch at Pancake House alone and chose a new dish one I haven't tried before. It was their new pasta and of course a strawberry milkshake. The pasta started with C________ Bacon with Asparagus _______ __________. I forgot the last two words because I couldn't pronounce it. hehe It was good. I thought I wouldn't be able to finish the whole plate, but anyway I managed, what with my I-thought-so-small stomach. I was really happy eating good food. And I was reading Eat Pray Love at that time and it felt like I'm in Italy. <3 Much much love. I always say to my mom that I'm happy when I get to eat at restaurants with great food. And at university, there really are a few little restaurants that serve great dishes. Anyway, I have to be grateful. So I'm happy when mom treats me to restaurants. She is my mom after all, and I have no work yet. Too bad I wasn't able to take a picture.

So about the realization, I will now save money for these treats and not wait (until I probably die) for people to give me treats. 

Should I hide my heart?

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day is done
And wake up to your face under the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
And I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away

-Hiding my Heart by Brandi Carlile

I used to be like this. With my meditations, I have a calm mind now. But honestly, am I just being cautious with the world and how I interact with people?

Blogger's Random Question

I got this question in my blogger profile, unfortunately my answer was too long. So I decided to post it here because I find it really cool.


Random Question: 

The children are waiting! Please tell them the story about the bald frog with the wig:

Well, here it is. The bald frog was a cursed frog. He was a mean old frog. One day, when he was still an ordinary frog, he chanced upon a fairy who was singing under some bushes. The frog started insulting the fairy, yelling, "Yo! You're singing sucks it's making my tympanic membranes break!!!" The fairy was very much insulted, and turned the frog bald.

After that experience, the bald frog can't take all the teasing and whispers whenever he passes anywhere! So he decided to wear a wig. Too bad there's not one wig in the land that'll look natural on him. :(

*The story posted is original--imagined out of the brain by Margarita. ;)

My friend J-em as our Biology mascot, Mrs. Rana sp.

Dogs, People, Love and Food/Needs

When I was a kid, waking up I always tell my mom who hugs me before she goes to work, if we could stay "hugging" forever. And as always she would reply that if we stayed like that then we wouldn't be able to live further because she has to work for food. And since then I always have this conundrum in my mind, love or food? Of course, if someone would love you then he/she really has to work in order to feed you. It's just like in the movie Moulin Rouge too. The Duke was offering Satine everything, she would have a comfortable life. But then Christian was offering his love. So what to choose?

And then I just realized this with my dog Harry. I'm the one who talks to him, hugs him all the time, carries him always, wants him on the bed even though my mom doesn't want to. My mom or dad on the other hand, talk/hug/carry him considerably less than the amount of time I have given him. But then they are the ones who give Harry his food. And yet, Harry loves them more than he loves me. Like it's not enough for Harry to see me in the room, he has to see mom always. So it's obvious that he loves my mom more. So the dog chooses food over love.

This is Harry on my mom's bed. I brought him there even though my mom doesn't like it.

I kinda see it now. True love is sacrifice. Yes, I love Harry, we love people, sweet-talk, hug, kiss, however this is not enough. True love is the one that sacrifices. My mom works for us so that we could have this comfortable lifestyle.She works because she loves us so much that she sacrifices her time w/ us, a time of hugging, talking, simply loving, in order for us to be able to live. So Harry knows true love. :P

If I could write "I LOVE YOU"

If I could write the words "I Love You" in the sky, I would. It goes for all the people of the world, those who are in love and those who feel alone. Anyone looks in the sky. It is a message for all. Because everyone deserves to receive love.

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Baba Nam Kevalam

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I went to my university today to get my clearance and the remaining two grades of my Cell & Molecular Biology Lecture and Laboratory. I passed! And i'm off to the last semester of my college life. Before going I had a lot in my mind, assumptions, thoughts about people, what I should do, future thoughts again. Anyway, since I can't do anything about what will happen throughout the day, I immediately cleared out these thoughts because they're making me anxious again. So good thing for 'quieting the mind' my mind was really quiet and calm throughout the day.

I spent time with my two friends, Mariden and Gela. And I was thinking of my other friends whom I wasn't able to see and kept thinking about where they were at that moment and what they were doing. Again, not healthy, so I cleared them out and focused my attention to the two ladies. :)

I'm listening to a free online streaming audio for meditation. The mantra is Baba Nam Kevalam. Here is what Ananda Marga has to say about it:

Baba means "my most beloved One", Nam means "name of" or "to identify with", and Kevalam means "only". So the meaning of the mantra is "My most Beloved is the only One." The ideation is: "Everywhere I look, in everything I hear, feel, see, taste and smell, I perceive that one Supreme Consciousness which pervades all things." 

To continue reading, click here. I love the quiet tunes!

I first heard this mantra when I was doing yoga at the Ananda Marga Yoga Center at Sikatuna Village. I was quite curious why the background music had such a peculiar phrase it kept on repeating. I didn't quite make out the words, but when I researched after three yoga sessions later, I found the webpage and Baba Nam Kevalam fitted the tune that was playing in my head (the music they were playing at the center).

Here out the music and meditate! It's beautiful!

Beautiful homes and relaxing gardens

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I just watched a movie today with my mom. And whenever I see beautiful homes, I would imagine having the same one with a family of my own. It's easy for me to imagine a Life. Nothing is probably wrong with imagining things like these but what's wrong with me anyway is that i'm so consumed with imagining that, that I would say to myself afterwards that I would never have it. You know why? Because I don't have that someone yet. So anyway, that was the problem. My time and my thoughts are too consumed by these beautiful future things that I don't have. Silly me, I haven't realized that it's the future that's why I don't have it yet. I realized that just now! Funny... I remembered a friend telling me that, having a family shouldn't be considered as a dream because it just happens. But being the romantic, I always say to myself that having a family of your own would be a blessing and a gift from God, I consider it more like a miracle. It's not something that just happens like it's something that would come, normally. I don't consider it that way. I want it too much.

The thing is right now, with my new kind of thinking (the quiet your mind thing) i don't think of it at all. What I think about is my present. What I have now. A while ago in the movie, yes, my mind was wandering again, imagining a husband and children, but I immediately stopped myself before self-pity arrived. I immediately got hold of my thoughts and changed its course. So I reverted the focus of my mind back to the movie. And I was glad. :)

I used to be present physically in the moment but honestly, my mind is wandering somewhere else. I actually wrote this line before in a journal: I am never in the present. I am always in the past and in the future. Which is totally not getting me anywhere. You might get sick of me for praising meditation and yoga again, but it's true. It helped me and would continue to help me.

After watching the movie while waiting for my mom, I saved this message in my phone so that I wouldn't forget to blog about this experience.

I know what my problem is, I think of the future too much when it is still unknown.

True right? Anyway, I'm better now. :)

Goodmorning Blogger!

Day 2 here in Blogger!


Like all my previous blogs, the problem I had was that I have nothing to write about when it comes to my life. Yes, I will admit, just this once that my life is boring. But back in university I would have school work again, which makes my life not boring again, (it actually makes it stressful but I will change that now..)


I had a dream last night and it was great. I was in the dream with my old friends. And I was back to my old habit of dreaming which makes me really sad because I know it won't happen at all, so my dreaming (the images and thoughts inside my head flying all over) was immediately cut off by my own personal mantra: Quiet the mind. I closed my eyes and said this over and over again. And tada! It worked! I was calm and contented again. Of course, that was only a dream after all. So next semester, I can't wait to try it. :)


Thank God for meditation and yoga! It really helps on quieting the mind. I dream a lot, think a lot and it makes me anxious and sad and really depressed most of the times. So now, I'm happily making my mind free of thoughts. And the weather inside my head is calm and sunshiny. Ha, this is the life... I'm really glad I found a way to control my thoughts.


Here are some quotes about becoming who you are through your thoughts, so watch what you're thinking.

A man is but the product of his thoughts. What he thinks, he becomes. - Gandhi

 All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become.-- Buddha

Let the wise guard their thoughts, which are difficult to perceive, extremely subtle, and wander at will. Thought which is well guarded is the bearer of happiness.

-- Buddha

Change your thoughts, and you change your world.
-- Norman Vincent Peale 

If you realized how powerful your thoughts are, you would never think a negative thought.
-- Peace Pilgrim

If constructive thoughts are planted positive outcomes will be the result. Plant the seeds of failure and failure will follow.
-- Sidney Madwed

Life consists in what a person is thinking of all day.

-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Credits: Quotes from here. Click thru pictures to know the websites they were taken from. All images searched from Google.

Say you love me, say you love me, then put it in a love song.

My brother and I keep on singing Alicia Key's song, and I keep on moving my head and arms to dance. Up until now, those were the words I keep on singing in my head. 


Another blog, but with focus now? I don't know if I'll be faithful enough to continue this. For the past three months I kept on signing up for new blogs with new names with different topics to write about but not any of them lasted. I hope I can keep this up.

My focus for this blog is to share and collect the articles I've loved online because I share them on my Facebook page only. And I would probably be able to add a thing or two of my own. I used to write long entries before but now that university life kept me busy I couldn't now. I used to have a say on a lot of topics and write about it, but now I'm like an ignorant person who doesn't even watch the news anymore. My priorities changed. However, I'm glad to say that I passed all my subjects in the previous semester, so I can actually say now that I am graduating. I'll do better on my last semester of college! I promise, really!

Anyway, I'm happy that kids nowadays really enjoy the majors they're in. Or maybe I love their course. Anyway, I would love to love Biology now that I'm in my last semester! The only biology-related courses we'll have this sem would be Animal Physiology and Ecology, and most likely our Research too. So, if I'm lucky and persistent enough, after graduation I can get to a Medicine school, and begin a more rigid studying and *gasp* dreaded exams again! But that's life.

Life, for Science students, is really irritating, scary and stressful. We're always almost like killing ourselves, sleeping little in order to study... So thank God I discovered yoga and meditation. I think these two would help me survive and keep me in balance. I think everyone should practice it, it really makes a difference. I swear!

Wow, is this a long enough entry? I think what I used to do that's why I haven't written anything long lately is that I don't give my writing a longer time. It's like I say to myself, this is enough. But the truth is, I would like to go on still and yet I stop myself because I'm lazy to type more. haha!

So to change that, let me go on...

I'm still reading Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. It's my first fiction book this 2010. I'm really glad I bought something finally even though the first semester wasn't over yet. I'm still in India, and what stuck to me from that place was this: learn to quiet your mind. AAAAH! Can't explain yet, maybe someday when I finish the whole book I'll dedicate an entire post about it. Time to go!