If I could write "I LOVE YOU"

If I could write the words "I Love You" in the sky, I would. It goes for all the people of the world, those who are in love and those who feel alone. Anyone looks in the sky. It is a message for all. Because everyone deserves to receive love.

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Baba Nam Kevalam

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I went to my university today to get my clearance and the remaining two grades of my Cell & Molecular Biology Lecture and Laboratory. I passed! And i'm off to the last semester of my college life. Before going I had a lot in my mind, assumptions, thoughts about people, what I should do, future thoughts again. Anyway, since I can't do anything about what will happen throughout the day, I immediately cleared out these thoughts because they're making me anxious again. So good thing for 'quieting the mind' my mind was really quiet and calm throughout the day.

I spent time with my two friends, Mariden and Gela. And I was thinking of my other friends whom I wasn't able to see and kept thinking about where they were at that moment and what they were doing. Again, not healthy, so I cleared them out and focused my attention to the two ladies. :)

I'm listening to a free online streaming audio for meditation. The mantra is Baba Nam Kevalam. Here is what Ananda Marga has to say about it:

Baba means "my most beloved One", Nam means "name of" or "to identify with", and Kevalam means "only". So the meaning of the mantra is "My most Beloved is the only One." The ideation is: "Everywhere I look, in everything I hear, feel, see, taste and smell, I perceive that one Supreme Consciousness which pervades all things." 

To continue reading, click here. I love the quiet tunes!

I first heard this mantra when I was doing yoga at the Ananda Marga Yoga Center at Sikatuna Village. I was quite curious why the background music had such a peculiar phrase it kept on repeating. I didn't quite make out the words, but when I researched after three yoga sessions later, I found the webpage and Baba Nam Kevalam fitted the tune that was playing in my head (the music they were playing at the center).

Here out the music and meditate! It's beautiful!

Beautiful homes and relaxing gardens

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I just watched a movie today with my mom. And whenever I see beautiful homes, I would imagine having the same one with a family of my own. It's easy for me to imagine a Life. Nothing is probably wrong with imagining things like these but what's wrong with me anyway is that i'm so consumed with imagining that, that I would say to myself afterwards that I would never have it. You know why? Because I don't have that someone yet. So anyway, that was the problem. My time and my thoughts are too consumed by these beautiful future things that I don't have. Silly me, I haven't realized that it's the future that's why I don't have it yet. I realized that just now! Funny... I remembered a friend telling me that, having a family shouldn't be considered as a dream because it just happens. But being the romantic, I always say to myself that having a family of your own would be a blessing and a gift from God, I consider it more like a miracle. It's not something that just happens like it's something that would come, normally. I don't consider it that way. I want it too much.

The thing is right now, with my new kind of thinking (the quiet your mind thing) i don't think of it at all. What I think about is my present. What I have now. A while ago in the movie, yes, my mind was wandering again, imagining a husband and children, but I immediately stopped myself before self-pity arrived. I immediately got hold of my thoughts and changed its course. So I reverted the focus of my mind back to the movie. And I was glad. :)

I used to be present physically in the moment but honestly, my mind is wandering somewhere else. I actually wrote this line before in a journal: I am never in the present. I am always in the past and in the future. Which is totally not getting me anywhere. You might get sick of me for praising meditation and yoga again, but it's true. It helped me and would continue to help me.

After watching the movie while waiting for my mom, I saved this message in my phone so that I wouldn't forget to blog about this experience.

I know what my problem is, I think of the future too much when it is still unknown.

True right? Anyway, I'm better now. :)

Goodmorning Blogger!

Day 2 here in Blogger!


Like all my previous blogs, the problem I had was that I have nothing to write about when it comes to my life. Yes, I will admit, just this once that my life is boring. But back in university I would have school work again, which makes my life not boring again, (it actually makes it stressful but I will change that now..)


I had a dream last night and it was great. I was in the dream with my old friends. And I was back to my old habit of dreaming which makes me really sad because I know it won't happen at all, so my dreaming (the images and thoughts inside my head flying all over) was immediately cut off by my own personal mantra: Quiet the mind. I closed my eyes and said this over and over again. And tada! It worked! I was calm and contented again. Of course, that was only a dream after all. So next semester, I can't wait to try it. :)


Thank God for meditation and yoga! It really helps on quieting the mind. I dream a lot, think a lot and it makes me anxious and sad and really depressed most of the times. So now, I'm happily making my mind free of thoughts. And the weather inside my head is calm and sunshiny. Ha, this is the life... I'm really glad I found a way to control my thoughts.


Here are some quotes about becoming who you are through your thoughts, so watch what you're thinking.

A man is but the product of his thoughts. What he thinks, he becomes. - Gandhi

 All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become.-- Buddha

Let the wise guard their thoughts, which are difficult to perceive, extremely subtle, and wander at will. Thought which is well guarded is the bearer of happiness.

-- Buddha

Change your thoughts, and you change your world.
-- Norman Vincent Peale 

If you realized how powerful your thoughts are, you would never think a negative thought.
-- Peace Pilgrim

If constructive thoughts are planted positive outcomes will be the result. Plant the seeds of failure and failure will follow.
-- Sidney Madwed

Life consists in what a person is thinking of all day.

-- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Credits: Quotes from here. Click thru pictures to know the websites they were taken from. All images searched from Google.

Say you love me, say you love me, then put it in a love song.

My brother and I keep on singing Alicia Key's song, and I keep on moving my head and arms to dance. Up until now, those were the words I keep on singing in my head. 


Another blog, but with focus now? I don't know if I'll be faithful enough to continue this. For the past three months I kept on signing up for new blogs with new names with different topics to write about but not any of them lasted. I hope I can keep this up.

My focus for this blog is to share and collect the articles I've loved online because I share them on my Facebook page only. And I would probably be able to add a thing or two of my own. I used to write long entries before but now that university life kept me busy I couldn't now. I used to have a say on a lot of topics and write about it, but now I'm like an ignorant person who doesn't even watch the news anymore. My priorities changed. However, I'm glad to say that I passed all my subjects in the previous semester, so I can actually say now that I am graduating. I'll do better on my last semester of college! I promise, really!

Anyway, I'm happy that kids nowadays really enjoy the majors they're in. Or maybe I love their course. Anyway, I would love to love Biology now that I'm in my last semester! The only biology-related courses we'll have this sem would be Animal Physiology and Ecology, and most likely our Research too. So, if I'm lucky and persistent enough, after graduation I can get to a Medicine school, and begin a more rigid studying and *gasp* dreaded exams again! But that's life.

Life, for Science students, is really irritating, scary and stressful. We're always almost like killing ourselves, sleeping little in order to study... So thank God I discovered yoga and meditation. I think these two would help me survive and keep me in balance. I think everyone should practice it, it really makes a difference. I swear!

Wow, is this a long enough entry? I think what I used to do that's why I haven't written anything long lately is that I don't give my writing a longer time. It's like I say to myself, this is enough. But the truth is, I would like to go on still and yet I stop myself because I'm lazy to type more. haha!

So to change that, let me go on...

I'm still reading Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. It's my first fiction book this 2010. I'm really glad I bought something finally even though the first semester wasn't over yet. I'm still in India, and what stuck to me from that place was this: learn to quiet your mind. AAAAH! Can't explain yet, maybe someday when I finish the whole book I'll dedicate an entire post about it. Time to go!